It's been a long time since I was last on here. There is so much drama going on in this world that everyone thinks is the reason they need to end their life. I get upset when I see things like that because they have no reason for the things they want to do. I got yelled at for telling someone on facebook to calm down... apparently I don't know anything about pain or any of that... I swear people stop turning everything into O-M-G my life is gonna end now because I lost someone that cheated on me and hurt me but I need to be with them. People grow up, grow a pair and then get over the bridge. Life is a bitch... Yes I know but really get over the past.
I get judged for being honest with people because I know how life is... I been in hell since I was 8 years old and I have wanted to end it so many of times. I haven't done it because I know I will hurt others if I do.... I would hurt many if I leave this world before they do.Life is a gift not a debt... some people can't see that. I have lost 8 friends, divorced parents, raising my 2 little brothers, raped for two weeks straight, kicked out, and that is only an 8th of it. You people don't see how good you got it... its a smack in the face to me when I read or hear that crap... your life doesn't suck that bad for that much drama. Cause trust me it could get worse then that... I know.I am not trying to hurt anyone by this but really people? Come on....
This stuff is old and I am not saying I don't feel bad and pity you but people do this for attention and that is what makes me upset. You guys think life is bad and just the worst thing ever... remember someone always has it worse then you do. Death happens... you live and you die.... that is life. Life is a game of poker... it gives you the cards in order to win the game... it is your choice on how to play those cards in order to win that game.
Life is a crazy ride and you need to hold on. Most of my friends think of me as their counselor to speak to about their crazy life. I want to help them and anyone who needs it. If that is all one person does is dwell on the past then I have to leave and give up. I don't like to give up. My best friend just lost his girlfriend (who was also pregnant with his child) of a drug over dose, his son (who had cancer) and his grandma. His past sucks as well but for his family and friends he stays strong and moves on from the past. There are times he will break down and cry and I am there for him. My friends are family to me... and that is what keeps me going everyday.
